ANOTHER STATEMENT

FRESH COMEBACK

Missed me?

well...

Something Fresh is coming on your way...

Soon!

DIZIZITTT PANCIT!

The Video that made it happen.

Just yesterday, it was finally announced and as all my Bosses agreed,

Yours truly will no longer work as a Segment Producer in any shows if i want, Cause now, it's already Official...

You know what im talking about! hehehe

Thank You Lord.

HABIBI AND ME <3

He's the Guy whom unexpected, came at such a perfect time... though was included in my plans, I never thought loving again would come too ahead of it's time.

And Yes, like i said from my previous blog, this time it wont be a tell-tale-all story. ;-)

Spare me perhaps this brand new love story that we're making... And Just be genuinely happy for Me.

Love you all my sweet Biscuits! ;-)

LOVE WAS NEVER LOST! ;-)

It's really been awhile since i wrote a significant entry here. I believe there is no point naman na kasi of writing my everyday experience here again for you guys always see me in Facebook and the likes diba? But i remember what my sister Xeng told me before, that it's still worth it to put your own personal, hanging thoughts here in your own blog. We don't have any Journal or Diary now remember? So giving a little time once in awhile may take a great toll to your memory, right?

And so it came to almost like 2 mos now. Uhmm wait, i have to counter check, (march 5, 2011). Ah, almost 3 mos since i broke up with James. I have never been pre-occupied eversince. My Time was so precious i couldn't even make up to some of my schedules. It was all pure HARDCORE RUSH! Amazing that after few weeks after i signed up and getting my 1st ever course at my Post Grad School-The IIFA for my additional education, i suddenly felt im almost close to achieve almost everything i want! Almostttttt!!! hehe

my director's monitor...

I have learned so much in my School, Paying at least 40k plus (in installment, Thank God it's fully paid now) gave me the exact teaching and skills i been wanting to learn since i entered this Industry. Now i know how to make KABOG na Light DESIGN, outargeous and Unique shots! I seldom rely na to my Cameraman, even I do my own SET for my Super Stylish Show Fashbook... Really i am so grateful. but the most important thing i learned (that i been sharing to some of my Friends) is the Right Attitude. Yes. I am trying my besttt right now! haha

Beautiful jacket and top courtesy of my Super gorgeous Solenn!

NOW LET'S GET SERIOUS.

Uhmmm..If you have been closely looking our at my entry
here, You'll notice i been so hostile and reluctant to share deeply what my true feeling is. maybe during that time i wasn't really ready, i was denying things up but mostly it's all part of my PLAN, and i guess i Succeed coz now, i don't feel anything naaaaa. Promise!

I'ts funny that i have gone too far (feeling ko lang!) for almost 2 months. I got my ever wanted Directorial Status at my Company, i didn't sign for GMA's exclusive 3 year contract! (What for?! haha) I got alot of Plans to think about... Super dami i just have to keep it a secret for awhile! Di naman magsamang magtira sa sarili diba? hehe



AND NOW... I found a new LOVE... And he came in such a perfect time where i PLANNED it.

details, details?

SOON!

I Still Believe.

THE PROMISE OF A HAPPY ENDING

The only sad part of the whole entry.. The Last Picture of James that i took when we already decided to part ways. ;-(

You Guys believe in Happy Ending? It's kinda weird to start with some opening line like this if the whole topic of this post has something to do with my Break Up with James. Yes. Its weird but i want you guys to know, that for me, that 1 and 2 months relationship with him was one of the "almost perfect relationship i ever been with." That's why it sometimes hurts when i think of how possibly can a two loving couple have decided to end their commitment to one another... Consider this post Melodramatic perhaps.

Yes. If i have to go back from where it all started, it starts with One Hook-me-up evening on November 2009. It was in Bar Uno.. Monday. None of us thought that the usual set-up of "I want You Now-Let's rock my Place" will lead to something Special... But It happened. It was part of God's plan..

Who would have thought too that after getting into that Exclusive Date, Pushing myself go Monogamous and deciding to concentrate on him more will lead also to a Memorable evening on December 25, 2010, when he finally came out of his comfort zone and asks me to be his Partner. It happened. It was part of God's Plan.

Several Occasions have filled into our Memory List, One that i can never forget is when he stood up to all of my friends, left his inferiority, and asks everyone to participate in preparing a "secret Birthday Surprise" which i think, is by far, the most memorable Birthday i ever had. It happened. And it was too, a part of God's Plan.

The Moment when we celebrated our last Month. 1 and two months we had. ;-)

The Valentine Dinner with my Mom.. Super Happy. ;-)

His valentine offering: Surprise me with 3 Roses with 3 apples. ;-)

And so I have loved James even more. Day by Day, as if i will never Love again to anyone, show my affection to no one.. and believed that this one is going to lasts a Lifetime.

But some things came unexpectedly. Soon as we have entered this year, a lot of challenging things and events occurred for both of us..James landed in a dreadful and exhausting world of teaching college students in Makati, doing his thesis at the same time, getting a Masteral degree and having that painful financial issue with his family that i cannot deal with...that have worsen his ability to believe in himself... that he can pull it off..He was getting old... and he was very much scared. The irony here is that I was getting a greater blessings, was promoted, sold to every shows here and there, become so busy that during the last weeks before the break up, we hardly see each other even though we almost live in the same roof.

I never thought this will affect US.

But yes. During that time, i knew that a day would come and we will ahve to say goodbye for awhile.. We just have to let some commitments happen before we make a move. Yes. Valentines was sweet, he gave me flowers and all, and i took the initiative of introducing him to my MOM for the first time. I never done this before. You guys knew that already.

Then it came to a point when the two of us needed a much more space than we bargained for. Time was so precious esp to him... I dont really wanna drag him to this relationship if it wont work, if it wont do good for his personal ambition. I myself too is obviously busy struggling to reach it now.

The Moment that we decided to split up was the Hardest. I apologize if i cannot put the details of the talk and everything for it may just open the wounds that starting to heal...I broke up with James at exactly 5:30 pm, March 5. Saturday this year. Didn't know it's going to end that soon. But it happened. And it was really.. GOD'S PLAN.

Part of this whole entry is a feeling of Hope and Trust. I trust James that he didnt get into this for forsaking me, and going into other realtionship. His reason until now, which i believe is really valid. The only thing that hurts me most now, is whenever his Ate Rosa, his sister tells me about Him. That he was still sad, yet he has to move on.

True Love never dies, what we did to each other when we bid farewells was part of our LOVE too. It simply goes to show that "when we really really Love someone, we have to let go...soon if we come back to each others arms it will only mean that we are really for each other."We never hated each other, we broke up in a mature way although he burst in tears while saying Goodbyes, and still having the usual communication.

It was weird the song i sang during the very first time we met is "Let me be the One". Oh Crap. Enough with Figure of Speeches and Unscientific Facts.

For now. It is time to move on. And writing and finishing this entry after so many days gave me somehow a huge relief. You guys owe me.

James will never be forgotten and will forever be remembered as a GUY who gave me the inspiration to do and achieve what i wanted to achieve... And i couldn't thank him more for that ;-)

GIVE ME SOME TIME

Really i need some time to blurt this out, to tell you here what just really happened, to elaborate the details on that recent "talk of the town".

What made me decide to leave the guy whom i perfectly described as my "soulmate". There you go. Just give me sometime. Had i known it'll be as affecting to my friends, i shouldn't have told you. Believe me, i was practically doing a "graceful moving on" thing. And Practically i dont want to see, nor to be seen in an emotion that can or may affect people around me. Don't get me wrong im still me... Still much much okay. Its been 3 weeks now. Yet, I just need more time.

And so i face this blog again, can't help not to reminisce those old posts, some still pending. Still news worthy. But don't worry- ill give time for that...

In the next few entries, be prepared... Have a tissue ready too.

:-)




Soon.

HERES ME AGAIN!

I just wanna say hello!
How you guys been doing?

Just like you, i like everything that is happening to me too.
but enough of me. you knew already how composed i am.

Things that i see from some of my Friend's post,
Gave me shivers and smiles. That's Life for us, Gays.

Really, Love is around,maybe, like in form of Career or in Relationship and is just as close as what we breath nowadays.
If we dont breath jealousy, insecurities... Then it wont follow us. Learned that so many times as i have genuinely expressing my sympathies to those who haven't.
This should we all been struggling to achieve these days.
Yet above all, thou we shall not forget, that sometimes...

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him.
If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him.

Hahahaha! Am so becoming too idelaistic nowadays i wanna write a book!

just chill Friends!


I wish i can find more time to write more entries here in my blog but i know you can spare me of this since im having so much of a LIFE now! :-)

BAD BAD BAD

Im having soooo many late posts lately.. Im sure you all know the reason why... Anyways, here's some snapshots of Me, Camwhoring and at the same time when we went all Dark and Black at Bed's Exclusive Event, uhmmm around three weeks ago. Highlight of this, is when Geo and I met again with his EX, and that same guy who went so surprised to find out that we're really, lily lily looked alike!--- well i dont feel any pressure, except that he's cute too... sabeee?

thanks for the ride mah sisters!

white!

ayun oohhh

Julio at Julia

with Mamu of course, at the 3rd lounge

The guy in the middle is Jay, and we hooked up like years ago.

debdeb.

GLOWS IN EVERY CORNER

There's really nothing special in this post here. Promise. Just some random pics of sightings of some people with glowing happiness... Yes. They will only be here till February 17 and is fast approaching so might as well fill them with Pure LOVE and Sweets Day to Day! ;-)